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$xhtml = array(
	'<{title}>' => 'My father accepts me. Not to get my mother to as well.',
	'takedown' => '2017-11-01',
	'<{body}>' => <<<END
<img src="/img/CC_BY-SA_4.0/y.st./weblog/2018/12/23.jpg" alt="The river" class="framed-centred-image" width="649" height="480"/>
<section id="Minetest">
	<h2>Minetest</h2>
	<p>
		It turns out the eye exam was mostly done by machines, which was cool.
		I didn&apos;t have to worry about human error; what if I don&apos;t correctly convey what I&apos;m seeing?
		The machines actually bounced light through my lens off my retina though, so it&apos;s pretty hard to mess that up unintentionally.
		An optometrist then tweaked the settings based on an exam performed via my reporting.
	</p>
	<p>
		It turns out that the representative I talked to before lied to me though.
		They told me I could get the anti-glare coating for an extra forty dollars.
		However, it turns out that the coating makes the glasses technically custom, so the base price no longer applies.
		A different base price for custom glasses applies.
		Instead, the total cost of the glasses goes up by three hundred dollars at that point.
		The anti-glare coating would cost me three hundred dollars.
		Not only is that outrageous, it&apos;s highly dishonest.
		I would have walked out and gone to a different shop if not for the fact that I&apos;d already had to pay for the eye exam, and didn&apos;t want to pay for another at the new place.
		Additionally, most eyeglass places dishonestly obscure their true prices by charging separately for the frames and the lenses, knowing full well that the frames have no use without the lenses.
		Sure, a replacement charge for lenses makes sense if your frames are in good repair, but there should be a listed price for the frames with lenses.
		You&apos;re never going to buy frames alone.
		But anyway, this place sells some of their glasses as an entire unit, you just can&apos;t get any add-on whatsoever.
		I&apos;d rather not support the separate frames and lenses sales model.
	</p>
	<p>
		I couldn&apos;t find glasses that really looked good on my face.
		I think the problem is my face, not the glasses.
		I&apos;ve always been ugly.
		I can&apos;t expect something to look good on it.
		I found a pair I sort of liked, but the representative was worried that my face was a bit too wide for them.
		They&apos;d work for now, but they&apos;d be more likely to break soon.
		I need something that&apos;s going to last.
		So I picked different ones.
		They&apos;re not quite the same, but they should be fine.
	</p>
	<p>
		It seems the glasses will be ready to be picked up tomorrow at noon.
		That really throws a wrench in my plans.
		I&apos;d known I wouldn&apos;t have much time for coursework today, but I thought I&apos;d have several hours tomorrow.
		If I can&apos;t get everything done by the time I have to go to work tomorrow, and I probably can&apos;t, I won&apos;t get my two days off.
		If I stay on task, I&apos;ll get one day off and part of another, but partial days off don&apos;t have nearly the effect of full days off.
		It&apos;d be nice to have two full days off, and not just one.
	</p>
	<p>
		After work, someone told me about an inexpensive place to buy prescription glasses online.
		I was a bit frustrated, as I&apos;d already paid for the more-expensive ones earlier today.
		However, when I went to check the site out, I found they maliciously block $a[Tor] users.
		They don&apos;t even want my money, so it&apos;s not like I&apos;d give it to them anyway.
	</p>
</section>
<section id="email">
	<h2>Lost email</h2>
	<p>
		It turns out my father wasn&apos;t ignoring me.
		He genuinely did not receive my email.
		I&apos;m not sure what happened to my letter, but somewhere along the line, it disappeared.
		At first, I was sceptical that this was a ploy to shrug off having ignored me, but his reply when I re-sent the letter seems sincere.
		And while he could easily fake that in a voiceless email, I don&apos;t think he&apos;s crafty or devious enough to come up with the idea of doing that.
	</p>
	<p>
		My father&apos;s on board, though he admits to being unfamiliar with non-standard gender words.
		It&apos;s a quick thing to learn though.
		Most gender-neutral words are already in common language, people just don&apos;t often think to use them for whatever reason.
		People think to call their offspring their son or daughter, they don&apos;t think to call them simply their child and not pointlessly attach a gender to the description.
		In some contexts, it makes sense to attach genders to descriptions, but on most cases, this is completely unnecessary.
	</p>
</section>
<section id="ugliness">
	<h2>Ugliness</h2>
	<p>
		I&apos;ve really got to do something about my ugly face.
		I think the problem is that I look far too masculine.
		It just doesn&apos;t work on someone that&apos;s not a man.
		Somewhere in the back of my mind, I think I&apos;m starting to consider surgery.
		I&apos;d really like to get away with not getting surgery though, if at all possible.
		I also think getting hormone-replacement therapy would be terrible idea.
		I&apos;m not a man, it&apos;s true, but I&apos;m pretty sure I&apos;m also not quite a woman.
		The hormones would feminise not only my body, but my mind.
		I would <strong>*become*</strong> a woman.
		In other words, I would no longer be me.
		Facial surgery should at least leave my mind intact.
	</p>
	<p>
		The first think I need to do is get permanent hair removal.
		Even right after I shave, my stupid beard and moustache are visible through my skin.
		Give them a few hours, and they&apos;re even more prominent.
		I need to get rid of the roots; I need $a[laser] hair removal.
		The next issue is that my face is a bit chubby still.
		I need more exercise and more dieting.
		Exercise is difficult though, as I&apos;ve got nowhere to do it.
		I had been doing sit-ups for a while, though I had to quit for a time.
		And now my mother occupies my living room, so I&apos;ve had to move my stuff to all the other rooms.
		There&apos;s no <strong>*space*</strong> to do sit-ups now.
		I&apos;ve been biking a lot, but that doesn&apos;t seem to be helping any more.
		Biking alone won&apos;t do the trick.
		I&apos;ve got my fingers back down to a reasonable size, and my legs are looking pretty good, but it isn&apos;t helping with my gut or my face.
		I think sit-ups or crunches are likely to be the only solution for my gut.
		I&apos;m not sure what to do with my face, but maybe if I get rid of enough fat elsewhere, such as around my gut, the fat on my face&apos;ll go away too.
		the fat&apos;s not a manliness issue, but it&apos;s still ugly and still needs to go.
	</p>
	<p>
		I also need to work on my voice.
		I need to find a voice coach.
		Without a masculine voice, maybe I can stop seeing a manly face when I look in the mirror.
		Then again, maybe not.
		Either way, I&apos;m not really fond of my voice either, so I have nothing to lose by fixing it.
	</p>
	<p>
		<ins>Okay, I wrote all of the above after I got home from the eyeglass store.
		I was surprised by just how ugly I am; I didn&apos;t remember it being quite that bad.
		While getting ready for work though, I did up my hair in the mirror, and I actually look sort of fine.
		Not great, but fine.
		I do need to get this stupid beard and moustache removed from the roots, that&apos;s undeniable.
		However, both surgery and hormones are <strong>*way*</strong> uncalled for in my case.
		I&apos;ll be fine if I can get rid of this hair, even if I fail to get rid of the fat.</ins>
	</p>
	<p>
		<ins>I think it&apos;s the lighting.
		The lighting at the eyeglass store was so great that it exposes every little flaw, and I&apos;m not used to looking at myself like that.
		I&apos;m still ugly, but in normal lighting, not nearly as ugly as that flawless lighting makes me look.</ins>
	</p>
</section>
<section id="drudgery">
	<h2>Drudgery</h2>
	<p>
		My discussion post for the day:
	</p>
	<blockquote>
		<p>
			I hadn&apos;t thought about generic programming in languages without typed variables.
			In such languages, generic programming abounds.
			It&apos;s the rule, not the exception, so we don&apos;t really talk about it in those languages.
			On the other hand, in languages such as Java, everything has to have a type.
			A generic variable type can be used, but that prevents access to methods specific to the more-specific class.
			With a generic variable type, the object contained is next to worthless.
			Generic programming though allows a specific type to be used at run time, while the class and methods themselves remain generic and ready to deal with any type of variable specified.
			Different objects of the same calls can specify different types, and Java will allow them to perform as expected.
		</p>
	</blockquote>
</section>
END
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